Simplicity

Simplicity doesn't only manifest in things like clothing, or design or patterns. One can also manifest simplicity in terms of thoughts and emotions.

It's one of the few ideals I've come to adhere to in my 19 measly years of existence. Things rarely need to be complicated, especially when it comes to one's inner issues.

But with simplicity comes courage. Ironically, some people find it easy to hide behind complex walls and barriers. It might be comforting to some extent.

Simply opening the door and being vulnerable to the bright sunlight maybe as scary as it is enticing.

My point is, I sincerely hope you will all be touched by this sense of simplicity accompanied, of course, by a deep well of courage to help you embrace the bright outdoors.

:)

Complexity

There are a bunch of times that I feel compelled to write something in this blog without any prior plans of doing so nor any prior inspiration to do so. This is one of those times.

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Oh I know what to write about.

Things have been relatively peaceful around me for quite some time now. Hmm, actually, let's call it "more quiet". Probably, this can be attributed to the fact that the semester's ending and everyone's focusing on their academics. Or maybe, the fire fueling many of us have already been watered down by a freezing cold dose of "reality." That, or everyone just collectively stopped giving a fck. Whichever may be the case, the silence is refreshing.

Then again, silence is not an indication that the gears have stopped moving.

Everything seems to be happening in the background now. Just in the back of their minds, the depths of their hearts. Sometimes they'll let out a little scream out, but otherwise, they look happy, or at least, stable. I'd like to think that they are finally stable, or getting there. Except, I can't.

There's so much complex emotions and ideals tangled together that an abrupt stop just doesn't justify it. This complexity that they've been putting up with is what bothers me. Then again, what is a human being without some degree of complexity. We'll be too boring that the gods might just smite us as a race if we don't have that inherent complexity.

Ok, let me back up a bit and revise what I've said. It's probably not the complexity that bothers me, but it's repetitiveness. Yeah, that feels better. The complexity of it all has trapped many in a recurring and exhausting cycle. It's fine dealing with complex emotions and ideals, so long as progress is made. It's exasperating to not see things changing.

Then again, I acknowledge the fact that complex things need time. I just can't take that some things have become cyclical, others too deep.

Looking at it in a different perspective, perhaps the reason I'm turned off by all of this is simply because I can't relate to it as of the moment. In a way, I should consider myself lucky for being spared of the burden of worrying about such complex (inner) problems as I'm writing this entry. Then again, if I ever do encounter such complications, I'll make sure I can trust myself no matter what. In the end, the greatest pull will always come from within oneself.

Encountering a complication is inevitable, but getting stuck in one is a choice.

the adult thing to do

A few hours ago, I was chatting with a friend of mine over Facebook. We weren't talking about anything in particular, just throwing jokes and teases here and there. In the middle of it, I pointed out that she's about to turn 20 this year. Well, so will I. We passed it off with the usual "Oh you're getting so old!" kind of tease, but the idea of this "big leap" lingered in my head. 20 is not "old" per se. But erasing the "-teen" suffix in one's age forever reminds us of something.

"You're not a teen anymore. Start acting like an adult."

And being a adult means that sometimes, you've got to suck up your pride to keep everything around you from crumbling. Sometimes, you just have to bow down so that you're loved ones would stop getting hurt. And even though you hate apologizing when you know you're not in the wrong because you find it unfair, you just have to do it.


Looks like I'm about to start learning how to act like an adult right now.

*sigh*

It's time to make this damned phone call and hopefully get this over with.