I hate myself for...

I hate myself for worrying too much about the little things.

I hate myself for not having enough confidence nor courage.

I hate myself for being too aware of you.

I hate myself for being too self-conscious when you're around.

I hate myself for not being able to utter a word to you when all I want to do is spend my time talking to you.

I hate myself for being jealous.

I hate myself for feeling envious of the people who gets to spend time with you, laugh with you, play with you, share with you the thoughts they have and the tears they shed.

I hate myself for feeling envious of the people you trust, you depend on. The people who make you feel happy and comfortable.

I hate myself for liking you this much, yet being unable to do anything to justify it nor show it to you.